For the past five years, I suffered from adult acne, and not just the “oh, look, I have a teeny tiny spot” kind. No. The type of acne I dealt with was the angry, “I’m taking over your face with my roots” kind.
Having adult cystic acne is debilitating. It's painful, both physically and psychologically. I went through periods when I wouldn't leave the house for days because I couldn't bear being seen in public. My confidence dried up. I'd wear crazy amounts of makeup, bright scarves to cover my neck and jawline and I suddenly developed an OCD-style scrubbing addition in an attempt to clean my "dirty face."
The reason my face suddenly become a volcano of cystic, angry, hormonal mess five years ago? I quit hormonal birth control and took control of my endocrine system. (Hello, hormones! Nice to finally meet you!) For all of the scars I'm left with — both emotional and physical — quitting the pill was the best decision I ever made. In my opinion, the torture was worth it.
I'm also a firm believer in the effects of internal heat and how dousing the fire with a bucket of water (literally) was what kick-started the healing process within my body.
So I write these tips for everyone and anyone suffering right at this moment or wears the scars from their period of suffering. I've stood exactly where you are and I wished (really, really wished ... and cried!) that someone understood what I was going through.
1. Look up.
I know you’re thinking, “Woman, why would I want to hold my head up high when it’s the very thing I’m ashamed of?!” Well, for the simple fact that it is your head.
I used to walk around looking at the ground, afraid to make eye contact. I hid my face from the world and therefore unknowingly hid from the world’s kindness and support. I blocked people out and felt very lonely as a result. Catching people's eye and greeting them with a smile makes you feel amazing and I’m a firm believer of you get what you give.
Shine your light, regardless of your scars. There's something to be said for moving with grace and confidence. You really are unlike anyone else.