I used to think being successful meant being busy. I was raised in a culture that said, "You have to work hard—you have to earn it,” and picked one of the hardest paths of study, Biomedical Engineering, graduating with honors, to prove I could do it. Halfway through my studies, I realized I did not want to be a doctor or work in a lab—I wanted to be a healer, though I didn’t quite know the term at the time. But I had this innate knowledge that I was meant to help others feel inner contentment and health.
Upon graduation in 2008, I scurried off to Wall Street to prove I could earn a comfortable living. I earned a six-figure salary in exchange for 60-hour work weeks. I was far from happy, but I thought I was making my parents proud by having a job title they could brag about. But in trying to prove I was worthy of receiving abundance, I became terribly sick with adrenal fatigue and my Hashimoto Hypothyroid symptoms became so debilitating that I could barely get out of bed and would have severe vertigo, joint pain, migraines, and allergic reactions at work.
During that time, I began deepening my practice in yoga, spirituality, and Reiki energy healing, and was attending the Institute for Integrative Nutrition, where I began learning that what I was eating and the energy I was surrounding myself with was affecting my health and, ultimately, my thyroid symptoms. I began putting the pieces together, but didn’t have the courage to leave my career yet.
While working full-time in finance, I had started my yoga and wellness company and would spend mornings, nights, and weekends teaching personal yoga clients and group classes around Manhattan and Brooklyn. I’d use every vacation day to travel to gorgeous exotic destinations to bring groups of students to heal their own bodies.
I was doing what I loved while suffering through a miserable job and burning the candle at both ends. I was hustling, and I was exhausted. Finally, my soul had enough. I fainted on the subway, one of the dirtiest places to hit rock bottom, and had to be taken to the hospital.