That evening, my partner called me and the energy between us had completely shifted. The effects of that meditation were almost immediate, even without him knowing what I had done. He came to me with compassion, softly, with genuine caring and respect. For the first time in months, I felt a sense that we could both breathe. The effects of this healing meditation were so immediate, I couldn't help but laugh and smile at the universe’s sincere desire to help.
Now I would love to say that we didn't break up, but we did. However, we did it beautifully. You see, healing doesn't always look the way we imagine it should. Healing truly means letting go of that which makes us suffer, and sometimes that means giving something up.
What I came to learn is that the relationships we have with people, with ideas, with habits...they are all their own entities, and because of this we can heal them without words, without working things out, without the other person even knowing.
This meditation freed me. It allowed me to see that I could leave that relationship suspended in time, and I would still be me because I was never living in that relationship; that relationship was living because of me (and my partner, of course).
Realizing that our relationship was, is, and always will be a beautiful creation between the two of us allowed me the freedom to feel separate from it rather than surrounded by it. I didn't lose that relationship. I merely chose to let the string go and let it float away and decorate the sky of my life.