Recently, I lost several modeling jobs, which left me in a constant state of frustration because I felt I was losing clients for ridiculous reasons. For instance, one client turned me into a computer-generated image of myself as a way to cut costs and never hired me again. Yes, my own digital mannequin took my job.
Another client decided they didn't want to work with my agency anymore. Then another decided to start shooting on much smaller models. All in all, I lost nearly all of my main clients and the majority of my income for reasons that had nothing to do with me or my performance. Initially, I dealt with it by panicking. I couldn't understand why this was happening to me, and there were months I wondered how I was going to pay my bills.
I didn't realize my fears and insecurities were what was blocking me from receiving abundance.
So, how did I get out of my own way?
I surrendered. I asked my Higher Self/God/Spirit/Universe for help. I prayed and then sat in meditation daily, asking for divine guidance, asking how I could serve my life's purpose.
The answer I received was that I have a much bigger purpose than modeling. That the career had taught me what I needed to learn, and it was time to move on. I was guided to read certain books and take certain courses, which led me to go back to school and connect with other like-minded individuals. When I finally let go of modeling as my main source of income and opened myself up to other opportunities, I came across new, exciting employment opportunities that allowed me to help others.
This experience taught me that instead of freaking out during setbacks, I should say "Thank you." Something bigger and better is taking shape, and abundance is coming.