I know what it feels like to be a size 6 and I know what it feels like to be a size 16. It doesn't matter what size you are, it is almost as if some of us have been hardwired to find fault with our bodies.
Over the years, I have fought with my body, starved it, overfed it, overexercised it, and underexercised it. It has taken me years to actually wave the white flag and surrender to my naturally curvaceous shape. It has been one heck of a journey to achieve balance and accept that I am naturally a more curvaceous woman.
I think perhaps I may have been born into the wrong era. I would have been totally "en vogue" during the Renaissance period. During this time, voluptuous bodies were considered absolutely beautiful. Looking maternal, fertile, and nurturing was really favored; I would have fit in perfectly.
At each stage, though, my self-esteem has stayed firmly intact, and that is one thing that has been unshakable regardless of my size or shape. My size has never defined me. The number on the scales has never reflected my personality or my integrity, as it cannot measure my worth as a person. Is it thin thighs and flat stomachs that change the world? Absolutely not! It is women who are proud, passionate, confident, and self-assured that really make a difference.
We have an intense exercise track near our home. Every day people run, walk, and climb this track to improve their fitness and health. One particular morning when I was driving to the clinic to consult on wellness and weight loss, I was sitting in my car at an intersection waiting for the traffic lights to change. I watched the endless stream of men and women race toward the track to tackle the climb.
I noticed one woman on this day among the hundreds of people exercising as her energy and confidence really caught my attention. This woman was about to walk the track. She was dressed in shorts and a white T-shirt and looked quite tan, curvaceous, and full-figured. What stood out about her was that she just radiated good health.
She looked fit and totally healthy; she was bounding with energy and was extremely proud of her body. I have to say, as I waited for those lights to change, I couldn't stop staring at her. Even from a distance, her energy affected me.
Her confidence from afar changed the way I consulted, and it also changed the way I looked at my own body. To date, many of my clients would set a goal to lose a kilo a week. Sometimes they would aim really high and try to lose 2 kilos in a week. When weigh-in day came, if they had lost half a kilo they would instantly drop their bundle.