I've been dieting off and on for the last 26 years, and each one has been a struggle. I had a constant desire to be thin, which led me to try every fad diet that hit the market. At 14 years old, I started with diet pills and Slim-Fast shakes, and from there I tried the whole gamut of diet crazes. For example: frozen meal delivery, eating only soup, weekly weigh-ins, supplements—you name it. And regardless of what type of diet it was, what food group I was giving up, what time I ate, what percentage of macro- or micronutrients I was calculating, the results were always the same. While on these fad diets, I would lose 8 to 10 pounds during the first month or so, and in the next month I would gain it all back. Then, I would start the process all over again with a new diet that promised to be the cure to all my weight troubles.
During this time, my emotions were yo-yo-ing as much as my weight. I would bounce between feeling elation from being at my best weight and in my skinny jeans to feeling like a failure, telling myself I had no self-control when my weight adjusted back up. I shifted between periods of feeling so disappointed with myself for not sticking with my latest diet to jumping full swing into hopefulness with news of the latest weight-loss program.