Today I'm Not OK And That's OK
I woke up this morning and went to get out of bed, but the pain was so great I virtually couldn’t move.
“Are you OK?” asked my partner.
“Ummm, actually, no.”
There was a time when such a flare-up would have really impacted my emotional wellbeing. I'd be flung into a complete panic, picturing myself never moving again, terrified I'd neglect my children. I was too busy analyzing what could have caused the setback, resisting the situation, and worrying about how I'd cope.
This was absolutely the worst thing I could have done to my poor body. Heaping extra stress on already tense muscles merely exacerbated and prolonged the period of increased pain.
I'd berate myself for being a burden, blame my body for not being "normal," and withhold the extra love I needed to recover as quickly as possible.
Today, I am perfectly calm. The timing is terrible because I have so many family commitments, but flexibility is paramount for a harmonious life. Realizing that things happen beyond my control and it’s OK not be be OK was one of the biggest lessons for me, and one which took a huge amount of time.
Instead of listing all the negatives that will surround my flare-up I have focused only on the positives.
Today I am grateful for:
1. A partner who loves me unconditionally.
2. Children who won’t complain at a change of plans and will be happy with a day at home today.
3. To be able to do something I love (writing) without it affecting my pain levels.
4. To have money in my purse to be able to order dinner later if needed.
5. To sit in a warm, comfortable chair looking at the garden.
There is always, alway, always something to be thankful for. I realize now that having a bad episode doesn't make me a bad person. I can be as kind and as loving toward myself as I am toward others and know that whatever I am feeling is perfectly fine. So today I'm not OK, and you know what? That's OK.
Want to learn how to unlock the power of food to heal your body, prevent disease & achieve optimal health? Register now for our FREE Functional Nutrition Webinar with Kelly LeVeque.