It was late 2008, the middle of one of the worst financial crises in American history. I walked the office hallways those days looking at the bleak faces of everyone around me. We all knew what was looming, and people were scared.
I began to search inside my own fear and ask myself, “Why am I really scared? Do I really love this job?” And the answer was always a resounding, “No.”
I would even ask close colleagues the same question, and I always got back the same answer: “Look Tara, I've got a mortgage and a family to feed.”
I was struck time and time again at how we are willing to do something that makes us feel caged in, stressed, and unfulfilled.
My job was empty. Meaningless. It was very clear: I was only doing it for the money. And that made my soul very unhappy.
Over the years I kept telling myself that when I got to $X per year, I would be happy. But my expenses increased along with my salary, and I was spending most of my waking hours commuting or behind a desk hunched over a laptop. I never got to happy.
But the investment, my mind would cry. I'd spent seven years building this career. I didn't know how to do anything else. I had just completed my MBA in Finance. What was I supposed to do?
I mean, I was relatively happy, wasn't I? I had a nice Manhattan apartment, a fun social life, a beach house share in the summer, and some leftover cash to travel for my 15 days vacation a year. Couldn't I just make it work?
But that sinking nagging voice in the pit of my SOUL kept saying, “I can't do this anymore.”
By the grace of God, I finally came to the conclusion that I couldn't make this my life's work. I had no idea what was to come next but that realization alone, finally admitting that this is not what I wanted, changed everything.
They say when you ask your spirit for guidance, you'll be shown the way. Books fell off the shelf, the perfect yoga teacher showed up, and new connections were made. These new tools gave me the most important lesson: I no longer was the victim, but the creator of my destiny.
Every day from that point on, instead of allowing myself to feel fearful and worried during my commute, I would imagine my life without this job. I visualized traveling the world with unlimited funds and freedom. I didn't know how, but I just focused on what I wanted.
A short three months later, I was given the news that my job was terminated, along with my boss, my boss' boss, our HR manager, and hundreds of others. Even though these layoffs were almost expected, for me, it was a miracle.
A layoff and a severance package meant freedom and finances. The exact situation I had visualized. Contrary to others, I almost couldn't hold back the smile on my face in my exit interview.
Don't get me wrong. I was terrified. But deep down, my faith had grown so strong that I had another path to take. I began to trust everything that was coming to me.
So how did I do this?
My spiritual life became a big part of my life. When I wasn't actually working, I was reading spiritual books on subways, commuter trains and planes, making yoga a priority, and sitting for a few minutes of meditation a day. I transformed my thoughts and shifted my energy.
I learned the law of attraction and became a master of visualizing what I wanted.
I prayed and surrendered. I asked God to lead me, now that I was ready to listen.
Two days after my job was terminated I was guided to an ashram in the Bahamas. Two months later I began a three-year extended spiritual sabbatical in Thailand, India, Bali, Australia, New Zealand, Europe, and Morocco. I found my true self – my true desires – in that time, and most importantly I established a deep relationship with the Divine.
I now share my passion — helping others develop a deep connection to the Divine — from my laptop (and sometimes a yoga mat) anywhere in the world. I guide those who aspire to walk a similar path out of an unfulfilling career and into the lifestyle of their dreams.
I truly believe that every single person on this planet is unique and has a divine gift to share with the world. Sharing this gift feels passionate, creative, exciting, happy, abundant, successful and prosperous.
I'll give you a hint: It's most likely not happening behind cubicle walls.
I'm leading an online course that covers all the spiritual tools that transformed my life from corporate cubicle to living a lifestyle of my dreams. It starts Monday, March 18. Click here for more information.