They say that lessons will keep showing up for you until you learn them, and each time you ignore a little nudge from the universe, the lesson will get a little bigger.
I’m writing this article whilst sitting on the pavement outside a garage waiting to hear what is wrong with my car. Did I mention that I only bought the car two days ago? Oh, and that I was on the way to my first shift at a new job?
It seems like the universe has thrown me another sucker punch. At 8:20 this morning, when I was sitting on the side of the road waiting for the tow truck, I was asking myself, “Why did this happen to me? What did I do to deserve this?” And generally feeling pretty sorry for myself.
But after a period of time (that included phoning my new boss to explain that I am actually super reliable, and also being pretty pleased that I remembered to pack some snacks in the car), I started to ask myself the important question, the one that leads to mindfulness as opposed to self pity: What is the lesson here?
I realized that one of the biggest lessons I’ve been tackling in the last year has been in learning to accept my circumstances and be patient.
I’ve never been a very patient person. In fact, I would say it’s one of my biggest flaws. I’m a bit of a control freak: I love schedules, lists and goals. I like to be on time.
And whilst this particular trait serves me in some respects, it trips me up more often than not.
This past year has been super tough, and I’ve been put in a position where I’ve had no choice but to be patient. My circumstances changed pretty much overnight, and suddenly everything I had planned and meticulously scheduled had flown out of the window.
It’s a pretty scary place to be, believe me. But I’m realizing that sometimes you just have to take that proverbial deep breath and have a little faith.
Sure, this path I’m on is daunting and scary, but it’s also new and exciting. My goals have shifted somewhat, but in a good way.
The ironic part of all this is the fact that my biggest goal, in terms of lifestyle and where I actually want to live in the world, is totally unobtainable for me right now. Sure, I could jump on a plane and physically get there (trust me I’ve thought about it), but it wouldn’t be sustainable. And so, I’m learning that to really achieve this goal, I’m going to have to be patient… super patient.
It feels like the ultimate lesson for me, like the universe is saying (with a cheeky grin on its face), “Hey, you know that thing you really, really want, and hope and dream for? I’ll give it to you, but you need to show me you’ve learned to be patient.”
And I’m thinking… Oh man! That’s the one thing I really suck at!
So, it’s time for a shift in perspective. Realistically, the place I want to live isn’t going anywhere, is it? It doesn’t have a maximum capacity like a nightclub, so if I show up in two years, I likely won’t be turned away.
And what if, when I got there, I was already thriving in a new location -independent career? What if I could actually be there in a happier, stronger, more sustainable way?
Wow, feels great just writing it.
So there it is, my shiniest goal, moved to the longterm section, and that’s totally okay. It still sits at the center of my vision board. I still have moments when I wish I could be there right this minute (especially when friends are posting photos of sunny days and perfect surf). But, I’m okay with this one taking a little longer.
This isn’t about learning to be patient enough to buy a new pair of shoes, or patient enough to wait for my car to be fixed (ha ha), this is the big one. So why would it be quick and easy?
Perhaps I should look at the time between now and when I get there as an opportunity to throw myself into my studies, be grateful for the opportunity to grow and set myself up for an awesome new chapter.
I read a great article recently on The Daily Love that shared a beautiful thought: ‘Choose to see even this moment as a miracle in progress, and then get out of your own way.’
So that’s my new mantra... I love it.
Time to kick back, visualize my dreams and wait for my car to get fixed...