Life can sometimes throw you into a seemingly chaotic and pretty confusing place, bringing on daily anxieties and a host of blindsided circumstances. These incidences can put you in a position where you feel you have to quit anything and everything that was or is, a part of that crisis phase no matter what. For me, it wasn’t some divine calling or enlightened spiritual awakening that forced this transition, it was the Universe telling me under no uncertain terms would I be able to continue operating the way I had -- serious health issues popped up and that deep seated, gripping anxiety that, with what I call my “perfect storm,” festered and permeated my relationships with everyone I connected to; clients, family, friends and most importantly, myself.
As this experience ripped through every moment of my daily life, tearing at anything that was not serving my inner peace or my health, I had to step back and accept that if I was to move forward and be whole and authentic to myself, I would have to acknowledge where I was in the craziness and find a way within me to embrace the challenges and finally listen to my own calling. I could only believe that doing so would bring me to a place where I would grow into a happier, stronger and more balanced version of who I am. I can tell you it has been at times paralyzing, emotionally upsetting and really, really frustrating.
The never-ending, suffocating pressure certainly had me tempted time and again to succumb to the fear, the worry, the monkey-brain thinking that consumed my thoughts, but I accepted that the “powers that be” had sent me a fire storm to once and for all help me get a handle on knowing who I really am. The surge of anxiety and streaming chaos forced the person I had been all my life to own up to the traits that had so negatively affected me, and be ready for what was to come from the release of thoughts that were no longer serving me or my interactions with others. In response to this humbling reality I started to;