There is a unique sense of peace that only comes from healing your past.
My past: Both of my parents were alcoholics. As a child, my father sold my body into childhood prostitution. As an adult, I was diagnosed with stage III breast cancer. After my last reconstructive surgery, my estranged mother was murdered in her mobile home.
Yes, I have a complex set of past experiences to heal.
When I first made a commitment to heal my past, I thought I had to be "fixed." As if I were the broken one. Because I felt this need to fix, I couldn't see past my anger about having to be fixed in the first place. For years, I fought and resisted the process. I thought I would only heal by placing blame and developing a seemingly impenetrable wall of anger and mistrust. I was exhausted and frustrated because nothing was working. I hit my "rock bottom."
With nowhere else to turn, I went inward. I began to pay attention to my inner dialogue. Slowly, I began to realize I wasn't broken; I didn't need to be fixed. I needed to heal.
The truth is healing your past takes time and a commitment to yourself to allow your unique way of healing to unfold naturally. Here are the five things I did to heal my past: