Have you ever felt stuck doing something you hate yourself for, but you just can't seem to change? That was me for five years.
For half a decade, I wrestled against an internet sex addiction—crossing every boundary I ever created and doing things without any fear of the consequences. I saw myself as, well, not much of anything, as I threw myself upon the mercy of any man who would have me.
Then there was the shame. After it was all over, I would pull my clothes up off the floor and eat french fries by the handful. I was plagued by fear and guilt and shame. The thought that I might never beat this addiction knocked the breath right out of me. It disrupted my life and wounded my soul.
So, after trying therapy, support groups, church, and self-care and not seeing any change, I was desperate for some kind of miracle—for something that could change my story. It wasn't until I started to take the time to get to know myself that I began to find the healing I hungered for.
I started to ask myself questions and developed courage to wait for the answers. I call it dialoguing with the heart. It is a powerful practice that has liberated me from myself. Here's what it looks like: