Back when I was 40 pounds overweight, I remember sifting through tons of diet information that fit into two categories: logical and intuitive.
Half of the information I came across was the "lose 100 pounds in 2 days" boot camp kind of advice. And this was attractive to me because they have step-by-step plans and what felt like a guarantee of how much weight I could lose. If I could just stick to the plan, surely I would reach my goals in x amount of days.
But then I got tired. Sometimes, after day one. I started to imagine how I couldn't possibly stick to a plan and have flexibility in my life at the same time.
Did losing weight mean becoming rigid? Did losing weight really have to mean "work" and "commitment"?
I remember going out to a restaurant with friends and taking extra time to read the menu and calculate in my head what the best combination of foods would be, how many calories and proteins there would be, and what portions I should be eating. Shouldn't this be easier and more intuitive?
So the other half of the time, when I was annoyed with the cookie-cutter diet plans, I came across holistic versions of health that promoted "intuitive eating." Just eat healthy and see how you feel, right? And I liked how this sounded because it was about finding what worked for me.
But there was no structure. And as much as I loved the idea of eating based on how I felt, I had no faith that my body was meant to be at a healthy weight.
I had spent so many years telling myself that something was wrong with my body because other people could eat pizza without gaining weight but not me.