I used to know everything about nutrition. I knew the calories in 95 percent of the items at the grocery store, which foods had the most omega-3s, what a plant-based diet did for the body, how food combining helped digestion improve, and which foods had the lowest fat content and fewest calories.
I spent two years in a graduate program, studying nutrition and spending most of my spare time absorbing as much information as I could about plant-based health, nutrition content, minerals/vitamins, food-related diseases, and a healthy diet.
At the same time, I was also knee-deep in battling disordered eating. I knew I "should" be implementing everything I was learning because I saw the direct impact food has on health. I was "supposed to" eat more plant-based foods, consume tons of vegetables, cut back on animal protein, and include fresh, whole foods in my meals.
But the reality was that I still craved candy from my co-worker's candy dish, desired something salty every afternoon, and wanted chocolate after dinner. I would try to eat "perfectly" during the day, but by nighttime, I was spooning ice cream into my mouth by the pint.
I went to war on my body and the way I ate. I thought if I could just learn more about nutrition, my cravings would fall by the wayside, my yo-yo dieting would normalize, and I would find the freedom around food that I desperately craved.