During this time, it was so interesting observing my body, my mind chatter, and my overall demeanor. My body would be the first to want to give up. My muscles would start to tense and I'd have to consciously release them and tell my body to relax. Everything is OK. My mind would then kick in.
I can't do this; this is too hard; I'll never last the full three minutes. I felt like a boxer in the ring, but I was fighting a battle against myself. Finally I'd start to feel irritated, grumpy, and annoyed.
I realized this scenario was like a microcosm of what happens anytime I am experiencing discomfort on any level—physical, mental, or emotional—in my life. Depending on the level of discomfort, my reaction might be milder, but it always comes in the same form. My body complains and I experience tension, low energy, tiredness, aches and pains, or even illness. My mind starts to serve me all the reasons why I can't do something and starts to work up escape options. And my mood reflects this as I begin to feel angry, frustrated, and stressed.